It's been so long since I've posted anything in this blog, seems so dead and boring. It's 2014, and that's when reality really knock some sense on my head that i'm going through my teenage years. Everything's gonna change. I have to go through all the hard times by myself. I'm 16, which simply means that I am going to sit for my N level soon, just that one letter itself has already given me lots of pressure without motivations and support from my parents,(blessed i have bf who will always get me back up when i'm about to fall) it's really tough. Another hand, being compared and people setting high expectations on me at the same time keep on poking me with insults. Putting studies aside, i'm always facing this thing that i am always feeling so insecure with how i look, constantly afraid to go out because always afraid of getting judge, afraid looking at beautiful girls thinking that "why can't i be as beautiful as them". Scrolling past twitter/facebook/tumblr looking at how these 16 year old girl can look so pretty then there's me. Locked myself in the room at night and cry because of insecurity. I don't look good in anything, i can't fit into this jeans anymore, my hair is in a mess, i can't wear pretty clothes because i will end up looking like a clown. But on the other hand, i'm always blessed to have my boyfriend always by side to console me every time i feel insecure even though i don't agree with what ever he say, the effort and also the encouraging and loving words he gave will always calm me down. blessed goodnight x