Days when you just feel like shit like you think that you don't deserve to live in this world anymore and the slightest thing happened like dropping a pen can just make you break down because you are just too sick and tired of all the things that you gotta face in life. I really hate that feeling when at night you can't help but think about all the problems you had to face and just cry to sleep. Honestly no one, knows what i'm going through right now. Mixed feeling and just unsure of your own feelings. You feel like avoiding everyone and wants everyone to just stfu and leave you alone that is how i feel now i wanna be alone so i decided to blog after so long. Idky i always have this guilty feeling when someone ignores me and left me hanging because i experience people making me feel so loved for one day and just forget me the next day like i never mean a shit to them. Like i was nothing. And now i'm afraid that people will just give up on me like how others did. Cause i know, no one will stay and all i will get is disappointment so i'd prefer being alone, no one can hurt me, no one will make me cry at night, won't have to argue with anyone and all. People come and go as they please oh yeah. So basically just how many days ago i just lost my phone. AGAIN and obviously i'm very pissed sad angry o m g it's like the second time i lost my phone already i feel so stupid la cannot even take care of a phone and i may be getting a new phone soon and i hope i wont lose this phone i'm getting soon if not i think i don't deserve to have a phone with me. Um so i don't know what to blog about anymore because i have no mood now okay alright goodbye.