So basically it's 30September how fast time has flies and it's only 3 more months to 2013 and i have to say that as long as i'm alive, each and every year that past is really a suckish year like 2012 hasn't been a good year to me, been having lots lots of problems but i'm cool. I just wanna blog this cause i think i'm just too upset with my life these few days. I mean i'm sorry if i've been a bloody bitch showing my attitude towards you but i don't even want to, the reason is because i had to. No one will ever understand myself when i'm in a bad mood. No one. No one will knows cause i am very good at hiding feelings no am not being selfish or what but some things are better not to be told. Cause it's very very hard to trust people nowadays. Are there you go saying so much things about me, i'm sorry that i ignored you earlier on. I didn't only ignored you, i ignored everyone and locked myself in the room and blast music. That's what i prefer to do when i'm feeling sad. I know you don't talk to any gurls but that's how gurls usually feel when they're feeling insecure, they can just go around stalking pretty gurls and be like "why cant i be as pretty as her?" and start to feel down so i really hope you get that in your mind. Sometimes when i ignore you and you know that i'm feeling sad for certain reason i really hope and expect a call from you and try cheering me up instead of saying all those words which makes me feel more sad. and about me not following you to take your art file. I wanted to come early to school because i got something important to do as i reach school it's not that i think about myself but do you ever remember that day itself i had to meet Mrs Chin because i want her to teach me but i didn't meet her because i want to accompany you to meet your dad. I'm not trying to ungkit or what but it seems like you only think about the bad sides of me have you ever wonder what i do for you do you even like appreciate it? I really don't think so. I know all those things you do for me and at least i appreciate and didn't go around say this and that about you. 7 more days think bout that. Sigh had no mood to study English just now have been thinking about this and it's very bothering. So much of me saying i don't want to care, in the end the truth is i really care. I am very worried about your fever and all but the way you act tells me that i shouldn't give a f about you so maybe i shouldnt. Just all the best for your paper tomorrow. Make me proud heh.
So tomorrow will be the start of EOY examinations and i've been studying for it of course but i really hope all my hard work will pay off. I really gotta pass this. Tomorrow's english, so gotta focus on English today chalos!