Nak jadi happy balik
How does it feels like to be happy. When all you do is laugh to everything, the only person you love was your parents the only problem you had was figuring out what toy you should buy. And tada now everything changed. A little thing happened and there goes me, thinking of all those negative stuffs, and keep thinking about it til i put myself in a bad mood and break down. I remember when i used to cry over everything bad that happened to me. Honestly, in life people come and go as they like. Only certain people will stay with you. And if i were to say certain people, i can count them just using one of my hands. So now who cares if they wanna talk to me, then come i don't mind if you're happy or sad it's okie if you just wanna use me as your listening ear i can give the best advises just pour everything to me because i know how it feels like when you're having a problem and nobody's there for you. And now, i tell myself that i deserve to be happy i don't live in this world to cry and cry. If anybody were to leave me or what, i let them be because it's not even my loss as they lost someone who loved them so much. I'm much stronger now than before i'm so proud of my heart, hekhek k enough.
So hi to holidays! Megacamp in another 8 more days i don't feel like going i feel like staying at home. I still haven't prepare anything this shows that i'm not eggcited to go. But i somehow hope that i will turn out awesome like last year's or even better. So i went to aunt's wedding yesterday which is at dad's side and i'm not really close to them i wished i am. I have to say that on dad's side, everyone is good looking and dad wanted to introduce me to one of his relative i think 2 or 3 years older than me the fact is he's handsome, tall he got a nice voice and dad called him cute but i told dad. "NO" but i'm still wondering what's his name har har har K.
