Ya Allah, please help me, guide me to the right path. To the path that will make me happy. Amin.

I'm tired of people/things going in and out of my life. Yes I constantly tell myself that God doesn't love me anymore i constantly tell that i'm the problem i constantly blame myself for everything that happened. I'm never good. I'm losing everyone i love. What has gone wrong with my life why can't they stay. Please stay i need you. Can't you feel me? You came in and made my life miserable then leave me hanging. Why must i deserve this? I just lost my phone a few weeks back. I am fucking disappointed. I don't know what did i do wrong that i have to lose my phone. It's a birthday present from mother and it has gone lost. Do i deserve this? I wasn't careless. It wasn't my fault. I took care of it. I miss my phone i really do. No one will understand this feeling right now. I just miss my phone. I've never lose any of my phone before why must this happened to me? There's just too much memories in that phone. You know how it feels like? It feels like you have to leave someone you love, and leave all the memories you had with him/her. That's how i feel now. It hurts right. All of our conversations are inside, pictures, diary. I cried so many times because of my phone, it sounds stupid but this phone was the one that stick with me throughout the days. When i'm sad, happy, in trouble, and now it's all gone. I spent so much for this phone and why me................just why me. I tell myself that i will find my phone one day, but....................all i received is disappointment.