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Fuck everything fuck my life my appearance fuck my stupidity fuck my life. I had enough of everything's that torturing my life already can you just please don't add more problems to my brain? I'm really tired of what's happening in my life already can you see that sad eyes on my eyes? I want to run away from my problems. I need my daddy to listen to my problems to listen to all my nagging but it seemed like dad always had no time for me therefore there's no one there to listen to me. I'm tired everyday crying of the same reason i get tired. Well "don't cry. be strong" that's what wira told me but sorry no being strong alone won't solve the problem. People say i'm always happy jumping here and there laughing but no one even knows the pain in my heart cuz i'm the only person who can feel it. Crying isn't weak. It's expressing how you feel. Like how you laugh when you're happy, or shout when you're mad. There's nothing wrong with it. It's just an emotion so ahead and cry. It's okay to cry. If you are reading this; this is dedicated to you. I get jealous easily. I cry every time i feel something is not right. I'm not pretty enough for you. I attitude you. I'm never perfect. You actually deserve someone better you know, more beautiful than me. Whom won't get jealous easily. I want to tell you that i'm really tired in life. No it's not that i want to kill myself i'm really tired i wanna sit somewhere and just cry. yes i'm a crybaby all i do is cry cry and cry. That's girl. You do what you want, i'm fine with it. I will control my jealousy my anger. The reason why i'm jealous is not because i don't want to see you happy. It's because of love i need you and i want you be happy..............with me. So you think that by just a "i'm sorry" of yours can heal my broken heart? Sorry you won't know my feelings you won't even know what are the reasons that i'm sad. So you think that a sorry can make me forgive you................................................................sorry no. And sorry that i kept you waiting for my reply. But this is a revenge for you. For making me wait. For me make having high hopes. Always holding my phone everywhere i go then whenever i hear my phone vibrates, i'll always pray that it'll be receiving a text from him but eventually i receive from someone else the very moment my heart sank. Everyday the same cycle repeat. Hope hope and hope then got disappointed everyday have you ever gone through this feeling? Ok well i got a confession to make over here..................... i saw you this morning and you saw me too in the school hall. I tend to look at you, and look away. But from the back i will be tiptoeing to look at you without you knowing. I have been thinking about the way you look at me. I also tend to look away without smiling acting like you're a stranger to me, like as if i don't give a damn about you. But deep inside my heart, i feel like just running to you and give you a long warm hug but............... change topic. Confession; you don't know how charming, handsome, beautiful, gorgeous, sexy, hot you are when you look at me like that i melted inside.