I'm sorry heart, sorry brain, sorry feelings. I couldn't control myself, you see. Sorry heart, for hurting you for a million times. Sorry brain for flooding you with his names, his face. Sorry feelings that i fell in love with him. I didn't even thought that i'll fall for you, when i get to know you. I didn't even planned to think of you. But after so long, it seems like you're the only person i think about, all the time. It's like i know nobody else but you. Like you're a part of my life, already. You know that feeling when someone treat you so special, you start to realize then fall for his kindness. I heard rumors everywhere saying he's a bad guy. I don't care. I mean it's not like "i don't care if he's bad, as long as i'm with me." No. As he's with me, i'd do anything just to change him, make him a better person, so in the future, he won't go around hurting people's feeling. I wanna do silly things with him, take cute videos, take pictures, make a diary, buy couple shirts, cuddle, bully each other, make surprise for each other. You know, when you spend your time with him, you're the only person he'll look forward to meet everyday. It's the wrong time for me to fall in love, no i swore i didn't fall, it's that i fell in love. It's the wrong timing, after healing this heart of mine, i don't think falling in love again is a good decision. Best friend will help, like we're best friend but we act like couple. He entered my life, lights up my life, and i wish that Allah sent me the right person to take care of my heart, that can make me happy, that will never hurt my feelings. One moment, I caught myself thinking of him, worrying bout him, thinking what he's probably doing right now. I stopped and actually think like "why are you even thinking of him?" why ha ha we are just friends like yea, then why am i so concerned about him, i'm sure that friend of mine can take care of himself like hello ha ha why so worried about your friend!? FRIEND?! Oh God please wake me up. But......*think*................*think..........*think............ i think i love you. :') please don't break my heart, please don't leave me lonely be my one and only. Stay with me forever please............ i belong to you. xo.
Going to uncle's wedding later *dragging feet. I'm gonna be alone, what's new? He can't text me, it's okay i shall sit there eat and eat and eat, i wanna go to school looking fat. Uncle's wedding again tomorrow, Izza and Faris joining to help out. So might probably going home late as hell. Haix please top up soon please, i miss you. Ha ha why the hell am i so emotional. Hmm a few more hours i'm gonna prepare to go out and................ eat. Ok bye readers :-)