"Even if we're apart, i'll always be with you. It's okay if i don't get to see your face as long as you're always with me, here xo" 

 So, it's officially 2012 tomorrow. Mum gave me the green light to go countdown but sadly, i didn't cause i got no friends to go with #life. So spending my countdown at home. Might be getting my school bag tomorrow. I'm in 2A1 next year WHY bad luck. Will be meeting the same bitches in that class. Nah study hard for combine and go to a different class next year ugh no! So i actually bathed and got ready to meet cousin to go to Marina Bay but then i last minute cancelled cause i don't feel like going, moodswings, stomach cramp. You know, girls. It's okay i can go next year. So i was just thinking should i cut my hair short or keep my hair long, my long hair is so annoying but i'm afraid that if i cut it short, my hair will spoil and it will look ugly. Ok no no! I'll keep my hair long. School's starting in another 1/2 days time.............WHY i need more holiday bitch. I still havent buy my bag pencil case shoes socks hair stuffs. Oh next year i wanna act cute bring water bottle to school. Oh tak cute eh? -.- And omg i'm serious i think i'm really still in a holiday mood. Sore eyes, fever, or whatever come to mama? Mama don't want to go to school :') i don't know what bag i should bring on the first day of school. Mrs chin won't let us bring our sling bag if not she'll confiscate and instead must bring haversack bag mcm sial menyusahkan hidup orang number satu. Expect us bring our big haversack bag to stuff in little things? Gile, i have to buy a small haversack bag just for school mati taknak la tu cikgu aman hidup aku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Goodbye 2011. Fuck you very much. 2011, the year your best friend drifts away, the year you finally find that on special person  and the same person moves on.The year you make the dumbest decisions of your life and the year you lose everything that once mattered to you. 2011: the year you realise you have a whole life time full of this kind of shit. -tumblr. 2011 is the most horrible year for me. The first year i entered the secondary school. The first year i start to have heartbreaks, the year i disappoint my parents. The year i start to change into a bad kid. The year i learned that people come and go. The year i made mistakes and regret it at last. The year i realize that people hurt my feelings and run away. The year that actually made me strong in a way to endure with my feelings. The year that i start to fall for ONE DIRECTION. and date them :')

Hehe love you too :p It seems like 2011 has been a pretty bad year for most people. But i thank Allah for being with me through the pain i went through this year, thanks for not forgetting to wake me up til today. I just want to change my life, i really don't want to spoil myself. I want to make mama and baba proud, i wanna do well in my exam, it's for me not for anybody else. That will make me be a better human, with a career you know. Then marry to a handshum+clever+bodybuilder..............ummm i want :3 oh isn't it too early for me to think about marriage oh tak eh? And judgemental people go around judging us and commenting on our flaws. We don't meed your opinion. One sided love; i learnt that life is not really fair. When i fall for someone, doesn't mean that they will fall for us too. I gotta accept the fact and actually moved on and thanks to Amalinson the alien for teaching me the meaning of life, if not i would have lost thanks siput babi :-) So yeah i have to say that 2011 has been a miserable life for me. All those crying, slashing, stress, heartbreaks, jealousy, loneliness it's been a tough one but i managed to handle it. Those are the reasons why i actually didn't want to celebrate 2012 cause i'm afriad that it might be the same, when all the  same things happened. Just for once i wanna be happy. I wanna smile, i wanna laugh. So in another 1hour and  50+ minutes, it's officially 2012. I shall forget about the past, and think of the future. I will make the past as a lesson learnt for me so that i wont repeat the same mistake, ever again. 2011 is the year actually i got separated from my primary school friends. They were the best it's like; primary school. No heartbreaks, i was kind of childish back then, then suddenly i realized that i have to grow up and face obstacles. I gotta face the reality, and for next 4 years of my life in Fajar, i'm gonna study hard for combine next year; sec 3, normal and sec 4 i gotta pull up my socks for 'n' and sec 5 gotta really do well for my 'o' and go to poly. I will try not to scold my teacher, i will try to complete my homeworks on time, i'll try to concentrate on class, i'll try to listen to my teacher instead of talking back to her. I'll try to be a good student, i'll try have more self-confidence in myself in everything i do. Lastly............................................................... I WILL TRY TO MAKE MY TEACHER PROUD OF MYSELF. Ahhh that's my biggest wish that hasn't come true for so long. I want to prove to her that i can study i can do well in my studies. And also i promised my cca teachers that i won't skip dance practice, i will work hard for the future. But ha ha ya i have to change this lazy attitude achieve what i want. Actions speaks louder than words so i really don't know if i could do all these sigh but, Ya Allah please protect me wherever i go. Please don't let me face obstacles alone, i hope you listen to my prayers. Amin. So jeng jeng jeng my 2012 resolution is to do well in examination, no more heartbreaks and to be happy oh yeah daddy cool! So happy 2012 have a nice year ahead! I love you muah muah i love myself too mwehehehe.