'Can i have a time machine? Like i can rewind all the times we had together & make everything better?'

I want to rewind the time, and i'd pause the memories we had. Then i'd make everything goes better. I'll change, cause i knew that if i make the same mistake, the same bad thing is going to happen again. Does time machine even exist? No. Sigh life is hard. Full of obstacles and well we will always need someone to be us. So.....i got this girl over here. Always there on time when i needed her. Met this woman yesterday, she won't be free for the next few days until school re-open. So we met, went lot 1, had our Korea lunch then mac cafe. Then we decided to head back to our childhood place, the place we first met. Then there we made our videos. It's all for memories. Not sure when will be the next time i'll be able to meet her :') So there's dance grad tomorrow. The hell theme is: hippies?! So lesson learnt: miracles do happen! That Sunday, aunt bought the jacket i wanted, mom bought my grad outfit and i only paid for my victoria secret. When actually i thought that, i'll use all my salary money to buy the stuffs. So yeah i believe that miracles happens e of course.

You me, Disneyland. My hometown, remember? Let's buy couple shirt? Cuddle under the blanket then i fall asleep on your shoulder? This love towards you grew everyday, so please take care of me. I really hope you could accept my flaws. I'll accept your flaw no matter what, you know. I want to spend my precious time with someone precious; you. Take millions picture with you then make it as a memory. I want to wear the same shirt as you. I want to do silly things with you. I don't want to judge me. I want you to accept my for who i am. I want you to fight all ur negative feelings, to be with me. I don't want you to get jealous easily. Cause i'll talk to a lot of guys, but at the end of the day, you're still the only person i think love. So, you have to realize how much i love you, Tom. xoxo . Amanina dared me to blog about the bad things i used to do last time cause i've been keeping this from her was afraid that she wouldn't want to treat me as her friend so yah hi i'm not that bad but if you want to know. Well................ i do the bad things out there without you knowing. The first thing is that i steal even when i have the money cause i just want to save it for something better. I grab the things that i want and leave the store just like that. Sigh and another thing is that i used to smoke. I know you hate people who smokes, but i did and i'm sure you're gonna be shock when you read this cause you once said that "i'll never be your friend, if you smoke" so i bared that on my mind until now. Glad that i've stopped. I smoke when i see ciggs. It's been quite a habit, then i start to stop. Whenever i see, i will just stop myself. And until now, i realized that cigg actually can be bad at times. I have to take care of my health so i say no to ciggs Alhamdullilah i can control myself even if i feel like starting the habit back. Thanks to Syahmi too, he didn't want me to smoke so, i respected it. sigh Is that normal or not? But all those things' i've stopped. I think i shouldn't tell the rest, right hahahahaha. So maybe i'll tell her more when we meet. You see, i've been frank and i really hope you're not mad. Cause everybody makes mistakes. I've changed. I'm the new me, and i'm really gonna be better for the future. My life. I don't wanna ruin it. I'm not that bad you know................ i don't take drugs i don't party i don't drink air kencing setan so will you still be my friend hahahahahahahahha k i know you will now i got swag hahah no la so i should actually end here xo.